In her words…
Betrayal and abuse are a common place in the hearts of those in authority whose insecurities and lust go unchecked. From their lips God is exalted, praised and adored but from their hearts come sinful thoughts 💭 To them Jesus is a common man, yet worthy enough to preach about.
Betrayal and abuse can happen at unexpected times, even in the hearts of those in authority in the church whose insecurities and lust go unchecked. For the sufferer, pain that goes on without healing causes emotional suffocation, so long as they remain silent. While issues are covered up with scriptures and smiles over boundaries that are clearly crossed, red flags can go unexamined. From their lips God is exalted, praised and adored, but from their hearts come sinful thoughts as it appears that to them Jesus is a just common man, yet worthy enough to preach about on Sundays.
I was once this person whom the Lord saw fit to shine LIGHT on. My heart was embittered and overcome with pain. And, I didn’t know what to do until Jesus showed up.
The Lord had to build my confidence in His Word to see that it works! I said yes to the healing process and the Lord did His undertaking with me. Thankfully today, I am both free from the betrayal and abuse. With His help, I realized that there is no power that can take over my King Jesus, the Conquering One who causes all power to submit in His Presence.
Unfortunately, this is what I experienced when I stayed with a couple who I respected greatly. In the beginning, I thought their relationship with God was deeper than it actually was. I saw them study God’s Word and they taught me to do the same. They were my youth pastors at the time. I acknowledged them as my spiritual parents and called them mom and dad as they called me their daughter. One day, the youth pastor touched me inappropriately. I was shocked when I was awakened by his touching me. I don’t think the touching itself had an affect on me more than him asking if I wanted him to stop. I didn’t respond with any words, but immediately hit him. Words can’t fully describe the insult, anger and offense I felt. I quickly got out the bed and went into another room of the house. All kinds of thoughts were running through my head. I wondered if why he touched me was my fault, could I have done something differently and maybe it wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t go into one of their kids rooms to watch TV and fall asleep. After that he never physically touched me inappropriately again; however, it took time to get used to a normal touch just to get my attention about something. Every time he did, I tensed up.
After this experience, rebellion grew big in my heart as I couldn’t trust in any leadership in the church. Even if a leader meant well, there were always questions in the back of my mind of if the leader was legit or not.
The Lord had to build my confidence in His Word to see that it works! I said, “yes,” to the healing process and the Lord did His undertaking with me in various ways to help me forgive him. Thankfully today, I am free in my heart from the betrayal and abuse.
My brother, my sister: if you’re suffering like I did from any kind of abuse, know that your suffering and suffocation can cease. All you have to do is say yes to Jesus and He will help you like He did me.
The moment you open your heart to God, the healing process begins! Surrender to Him and wait on His Presence. I decree, YOU ARE HEALED, in Jesus’ Name. Lord, thank You for breaking chains ⛓ off Your sons and Your daughters. If you said yes to Jesus helping you while reading my testimony, from this day forward your life will never be the same, in Jesus’ Name. Amen!
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